Playing with Dirt...
Have you ever seen a kid playing in dirt,mud and makes himself filthy.And when the filth penetrates into all his pores then the fear of being scolded by his mother haunts him.He gets depressed and sits in a corner.Crying,weeping,he just seeks help.He finds places to take bath.That mud has covered all his body,his complexion,his clothes all are muddy.
Don't you think we all human beings are like that kid?.We play with dirt and our soul gets impurity.We absorb this filth into us and takes pleasure.How disgusting we are!!...Ok,i shouldn't blame all of you,i should rather talk about myself.That would sound more realistic.That mess and filth is rooted in me,now.I am cluttered with all the dirt.All around me is just trash and i am stinking,listen me you all world,i am stinking...!!!!
The most comfortable states when you are playing with dirt and when you're out of it.Otherwise,it's just pain and i am lingering!It's just that i played with dirt and now i am disgustingly dirty.I've realized that what i've done to me but still i am nasty!i am impure!i am..oh!why i am alive?!...Should i cry?should i mourn?but would it work?would it soothe me?Be practical,girl!but is it easy to be so?!...Something should be done. You see,i am so yucky!My face is so filthy.My whole body is horribly obscene.I scratch my body,but the more i want to clean myself the more it gets dirty,filthy.It makes me to scream.I,then slap myself.
Alot of slaps at my cheeks,lastly,it aches..!!
Fault is mine,why i stepped forward,why i put myself in it.Slum makes you miserable.It did!Fault was mine.
Listen me you Allah!your world has become so nasty.It haunts me.I get depressed.It kills me.People are strange.I fear of them.Call me!You know better from what i am suffering.Make me able to get out of it.I am so impure.I want purity and i find it nowhere.Wasn't i unaware when i put my foot into it?I am deep into it,now.Call me!I am tired of all it.I am tired,my whole body is aching.Call me!I don't want to be anything.I don't want to be an emotional fool.You love me seventy times more than my mothers.Show me the signs of life.I am mentally dead.Your creatures don't know,you know better.Embrace me.Wipe my tears.Hug me and say you're there.You are better watching how much trash is there,if you would avoid then i've no one.Let my tears not to waste and bestow me with strength.I am dying,you see?!,you better know.
He knows. I thought I was alone in my lamentation but this post proved that we're all in it together. It isn't a consolation - it's just an awful truth of life. These days when I kneel down to make a dua for myself, I feel burdened. I literally feel that there's a heavy weight pressing down onto my body. We all shoulder such weights, the weight of sins. But like the dirty child who must take a bath to cleanse himself, we must, also.
ReplyDeleteOnce the Prophet SAW said 'If there was a river at the door of anyone of you and he took a bath in it five times a day would you notice any dirt on him?" They said, "Not a trace of dirt would be left." The Prophet added, "That is the example of the five prayers with which Allah blots out (annuls) evil deeds.'
We must cling on to our river. A day might come, by His Will, if he remain persistent and keep on knocking on His door tirelessly, He will let us in. He will. But most of us give up too soon. We are impatient, you see. But we must be patient and keep on asking Him to cleanse us. He will. For who will if He won't?
You're right,No one will,if He won't.This time i am not gonna give up!If i want to be consistent and pure i'll have to be strong.Prayers of friend like you might work:)...And thank you for understanding:)
Deleteohh!!!fundamental idealogy ohh!! Alas...this made me cry ever and ever actually the reality of a person is nothing more and beyond from the importance of MUD...as we are born by this MUD and we have to sustainted on this mud...so after that all know about the position of human in this WORLD ... its a great question that is now rising in my mind..!!so Why we does bad,wrong,cheap,bloody works day by day..??
ReplyDeletewe must think about self as we have nothing more reality beyond of MUD and steep blind grave..!!we should to live in this world as a stranger...as that is said by HOLY PROPHET also..!!
Thank you for considering it that good:)
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