Just 25march!

sometimes,you can't stop thoughts to make a way in your brain.Why we feel so helpless at times that we loose balance and let all the venom to come in?...I have seen girls whose hearts,when broken they break themselves.They cut themselves.They take pleasure in pain.Well,i shouldn't blame all of them.It's up to you what you choose.More agony or less peace!.But when i feel torment in me,i feel that it is the point where he says'wajjay Allah wali tar'...

I can't listen songs,now-a-days.They kill me.They pour something poisonous liquid in my ears.Murderous thoughts come in my brain and i feel my heart at fire.It's just like that when baby sleeps and wakes up from a nightmare and cries!and here,his mother comes and loves him.So,what i do,i,,when listen phrases like:

touch me!touch me!lol

I run away from the place and i start wird or some naats or any other kalam..that event,indeed,broke me.It has its hole in my soul.A big hole that bleeds every time and every time i cry and every time He gives His glimpse.How could be i at this peace if i had not Him!

The day is spent in fighting with nafs.Whole day,i was gone through a hell.Tears came and gone and i felt depressed.But how your sorrow becomes so little when you see a sick kid and others.But it breaks me when i see girls making dreams.

meri mehndi ka rang garha tha!

tumhara husband tumhy bohat pyar kry ga

*laughter*

I felt a vomiting.Again,i see a flash back and all pain gets again green.Today i read that a man that is young may be old in hours.I was thinking that what my age could be mentally?Just a toddler.A baby who cries and who needs his mother besides him,otherwise,he might know how cruel this world is!

You,A,might be busy in making other girl to believe that how much you're obsessed with her.And if girl would be like me then she will tell you that she is so unique.If being Bacon,then what lieth in uniqueness?...It scares me now.Like,i am alright if i am a part of a crowd.An ordinary girl.I am nothing.Neither worthless nor worthy.I am simple girl with simple thoughts.Thoughts that sometimes stabs my heart.But 'hur kutty ka din ata hai'B-)....Mine would too!

assi khud nu ap ujarya e!

I am literally moving my head when he says,wajjay Allah wali tar!...Malang?!oh,no!i am just a simple girl.Days will come and days will go.I'll find myself,someday,more secure.(hey,it had a rhyme scheme).Submitted an assignment today.Don't know what would it bring out as i made it all by myself.0.indeed!..Girls were so obsessed.Mine were 10pages and their's were of 100000!!!...I would have done the same if i had been the same girl.But i've learnt how to obey orders.I've developed a thing in me which they call'saayien'.If this saayism gives me relief,then:

Na chair malanga nu ve ranjha 

O wadday saayin honday!....