Lights off
Winter is arriving...it really seems a dark and sad season...a mysterious season in which you feel that every thing has it's own melody and everything sings a sad song.
Days are getting harsh with me.They are angry with me.My life is a mixture of depression and i am suffering from it.I really want to run away from this world.People are so hostile and indifferent to me.They say they care but hollow care...they say they love me but which type of love is this which gives nothing but depression?..so many questions are there but answer is nowhere...
I've nothing to loose now.I am a failure who is going with flow.I've no expectation and no complains now.I am a fallen star which once used to be shine on top.I will really miss my golden times in chill of december.December is so attached with my psyche now.Summer season was full of excitement.It gave me so many things and now when it has gone it took away all warmth and now there is just a frozen heart which very often beats....
"Someone is going,you know and i am too helpless to stop him"
Days are getting harsh with me.They are angry with me.My life is a mixture of depression and i am suffering from it.I really want to run away from this world.People are so hostile and indifferent to me.They say they care but hollow care...they say they love me but which type of love is this which gives nothing but depression?..so many questions are there but answer is nowhere...
I've nothing to loose now.I am a failure who is going with flow.I've no expectation and no complains now.I am a fallen star which once used to be shine on top.I will really miss my golden times in chill of december.December is so attached with my psyche now.Summer season was full of excitement.It gave me so many things and now when it has gone it took away all warmth and now there is just a frozen heart which very often beats....
As we all know, it's cold in winter and we can't change it. What I wish for is the warmth in your heart even during the coldest days of winter.
ReplyDeleteYou aren't a failure. Behind what's happening, there's always some hope. You need to go towards that direction, one step at a time. I empathize with your feeling but let's look at the brighter side of things; the seasonal changes, it's not winter only, there are spring and summer. That's literally speaking.
Thank you so much for empathising as it's needed...
DeleteWhat kind of love gives only depression? This is one question even I don't understand. Strange to see how two people could be feeling virtually the same thing, but still of no use to the other.
ReplyDeleteI wish you the warmth of blankets, coffee, chocolate, and the hug of a special one for this winter. :)
My sister has gone in her new home or else i might get her hug:P
DeleteI'm always here ;)
DeleteI can feel you...have you noticed how some people feel each emotion so strongly yet for others there is no feeling...Some people can feel each emotion in its raw state, when happy, we are overwhelmed, when sad, we are depressed...people like Virginia Woolf, Vincent Van Gogh, Sylvia Plath...you and me...Keep writing..
ReplyDeletethank you for being here...i really feel that one could find virginia in me:p
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