Blue moon of the sky(Part-13)

Honnata was crying while sitting besides ashtar.Ashtar was calmed and seemed relax where as honnata was like a desperate soul

"I can't forgive myself for this!."

"Somethings are not in our control."

"Oh!ashtar i am responsible for it.oh!how could i do it!oh!i am so a bitch! and i am so guilty! and  i..oh!i am so speechless!and oh!words don't help me."

"It was in my destiny honnata.Don't blame your poor soul!"

 "Ashtar i destroyed you future.It was i who was so mentally sick and my fortune eclipsed yours.oh!your passion of becoming doctor?!what of it now?!oh i did it!and oh!you wanted to be the most happiest person in the world!i wish i could die right now-"

"Shut up honnata,kindly shut up!.......Even now you didn't understand what fate wanted you to understand.Life is not your property and you are no one to decide whether you should end it or not-"

"But i wanted it so that you may realize how embarrass i am."

"Then sorry my love!this is not the way.Honnata by giving me your life you can't make me realise your love for me.You say i can't be a doctor now and true it is.But mind you lady!i've devoted my will for your love.Life is given by Him so it can't be devoted for you but for and only for Him.What i could devote was my will.I knew by doing so i might loose my some parts and it did happen,i lost my eyes and future but was it not demanded by love?!Love demands sacrifice and i did it.And now you should realize it honnata and you,also,should devote your passion of art for the love of your parents.They need you,be their pride not a disgrace by showing your mood swings to them.Death is not a solution it's a canker which might sting your soul even after death.What i lost was precious but what i've is even more precious.Be my strength honnata,not weakness.!now stop crying girl!

Honnata hugged him and he smiled calmly.His smile didn't have an old charm but still he smiled and honnata felt peace as she ever felt in his company.