Blue moon of the sky(Part-4)

"Is leaving each others is the only option?".This thought was making her heart aching to increase more and more.

"I can't do this to that poor soul,it would be wrong to leave him!.We'll take a new start.Yes it would work!".She was saying these words to herself.

While traveling to home she sometimes cried and sometimes smiled silently.

When she arrived at home she felt as if some ghost had visited there and made her home a haunted house.A strange silence was prevailing at the home.It was once heaven like place and now no more than a hell..a silent hell..and two persons were burning in this hell.

"I won't let this to happen!"

She said this and rushed towards her own room.There she saw a man...which was similar to ashtar by only his face..a  soberness was there on his face still calm and relax he was.

Ashtar never was so sober and serious as he was now.He was the man who wanted only to smile but in those days his smiles were vanishing.

Honnata was like now a scared baby who ran and curled her arms around his shoulders.

"Are you happy with me?"..she was half-crying.
"Yes,i am happy with you."
These sentences proved a tonic to her soul.She wiped her tears and asked:
"You won't leave me?"
"Well,i am afraid that you might find me dead oneday!"
"Don't say things like this.It kills me sweetheart"
"It kills me too!and i am dying everyday!"
"oh!just stop!kindly stop!"

She held his hands and made him to sit on chair and she herself sat down by holding his arms on floor.

"Look!listen!just learn how to adjust.When we'll learn then there won't be any fight.Ashtar my love shouldn't demand sacrifice neither i am able to do sacrifice.I just love you and you don't believe me.Why is it so?"

This time ashtar drew his hands back and stood up.

"I've left everyone for you!I am so mad at you!and whenever i want your love you go to your work!
this is not done!you take me as a toy with which you play and whenever you're done with me you leave me.It's my disgrace.I am used to of getting love and care and you never did to me.I am tired honnata.I love you but can't resist to think these things which i think are true...."

These words fell as thunder on her.Ashtar continued his point:

"I cried days and nights for you.I was like a baby to whom you never loved.Look!my tears are rolling down on my cheeks..look!how my cheeks have rashes by wiping my tears again and again.Did you notice?never!".How can you notice because you have to work.You decide so well what to choose lady!and you chose what made me to believe that in this relationship it's only me who is supposed to love."

Honnata's hope for new starting left incomplete.Her brain was running fast.She began to think and meanwhile when ashtar was about to leave the room she said these words with her shivering tongue:

"If my love hurts you so...and if my love makes you to cry like a baby....if..m..y..love..oh!..i jus-
t..you..oh!how to say..words are not there to help me...if ...i permit you to...you to...leave me!!..you may go...live your life fully."

She,then heard only the voice of shutting the door.And foot steps became vague and then faded.She was scared and hide herself under her arms and cried silently.Room could hear the sobs.

It was like the home was dead.