I am burning in cold fire...

I was writing a post "The moments i laughed the most"...I was so overjoyed today because i had so many chances to laugh..To laugh on things which might have killed me if i had heard them a few months ago.But things and priorities are changed now.On such petty things i used to be depressed.I wish i could be the same lame girl.Believe me,that things were good,they were not much that painful by which i am suffering from.Those were just so little..so childish.He gave me such a little time to laugh and look how my tears are playing with my eyes.How my hands are shivering  while writing this post.I was supposed to write the second part of "In my lonely world"...But not now,i am not going to end it.Theme is so good but age is not right.I'll write one day but not now.I had selected this image to put in my post but now i can only see it and can't feel what she is feeling.

I am feeling so weak my brain has been jerked for so many times by circumstances that now it's on death-stage.It's so fragile,so feeble.Look!this tear is traveling through my nose to lips and now i've wiped it.Laughter changed into screams ,so soon.Allah g!at least, for some moments you should have let me to stay in this spell.How this little innocent barbie was floating on the river of laughter and then the storm came and i am entangled.Help me!

I walk on this path,lonely.You want to join me?.Then come and follow my foot-steps,but you see, they are removed by winds and storm so you might get strayed.Just be safe!and stay at peace!and i walk alone!...

Hating this rain which is raining on my wound and my wound get nourished and pain is at intensity.Hating the mist and fog which is hiding your apparel.Hating the winter which has made my cold heart more cold.Frozen my heart is,and waiting for your warmth.!

I ran,ran,ran!...but got no one on other side.I got tired and turned back.The journey of returning back is so painful.I wish i could die..just now i could die.I am coward!listen you world!i am coward!I am not brave enough to bear you!I am looser!lost all!...