In Hell

I feel myself like a child who has nothing to give to anyone.And when i see happy faces around me i yearn to be a part of them but something inside really stops me to go there as i think they might not like me and i always remain in corner.I,then,came here and pour all my emotions and feelings here but just now i've realised that what a big looser i am who couldn't even do justice to her own thoughts.

I am a girl who really worships those people who belong to my loved ones.The friends of momina are like heavenly things for me after all,they are her friends and the husband of my sister is like a man of honor.And i am so crazy a girl who gave him my blog address in a spell and hoped he might appreciate me.But just now all hopes broke.

"There is no versatility there and your thoughts have no direction and nothing special your blog is it was SO SO!"

"He!how could he?!i mean he shouldn't have said so!la dolce vita loves my writings she says that i can be a great story teller.Izdiher,Debra all admire me then why didn't he?!......a silence.

oh!maybe they are just..i don't know and oh!what i did?!i gave my blog address to my teacher!what would she think of it?!i pray she may not open it!and look how a looser i am my own pen decieved me and i am so lame a girl and now at this very time i want to run and run and go to a place where no one lives except me and i want to hide myself in darkness and let no one notice how lame i am and this is the only reason which stops me to go there and be a part of them.What of part 10 zarnab?oh!to hell with it!what would it make difference if i won't publish it?!will anyone care?no!oh!no one care!damn me!sorry to my pen and my brain i couldn't write well!"

So a worthless little shadow in this big world!.....