Outside The River...

I shouldn't defend myself by mingling things.I am getting aged by days,atleast,mentally.The youth full of errors.Why didn't the Adam stopped me from eating that satanic apple?..Maybe,he did.The helpless Juliet who was ruined in the name of romeo.The Portia whose Bassanio was idiotically fool!...

The fish who is yearning to get out of river,oh!how can i make her understand not to do it!.Maybe,i would be wrong if i stopped her.If mine fate was dark,uhh!this is not so.Some of my feelings really don't catch words.I mean,i feel helpless while fighting with words.Girls,when they talk of facebooks,Twitters,it scares me.It really wides the hole inside me.It digs it deeper and deeper and ouch!it hurts.Well,not hurt but scares.I feel envious when they laugh so easily,when their talks are so lively.I wish mine could be the same one.I can produce it but it's not that good.It's really not.And,it kills me.

How should i explain.I mean i know i am going to sound like a silly girl but it really exists here.You see,from which horror,i am going through?...Do you know how it feels when they say they...The most sharp knife it proves to your ears and still you endure.Do you really know,how it feels when your fantasies crash to the strong venom's wall and come back to you in the form of fluid that is as if, spitting on your face.Then you really know,how to run away when you listen the words that echo in your brain.You can run from people,you may run from world,you can also run from your shadow.But you really can't run from your own thoughts that keep you arrest for 24/7.Can you?

I won't speak even a word but you really leave me with a dumb face and a stormy thoughts.You really don't know,how your words effect me,when you say those things to me.It's all opposite to reality my sweethearts!Because,up till now,you don't know what i know.And i really pray,you may never know.

The flower when plucked from the bough,it gets weltered.The sparrow that falls from the nest in it's early days,dies.The fish that jumps out of the river dies!And,i am dying.You know,i am dying!But my sweet,innocent,girl!don't jump!It would make you to die.

Because...

There's nothing outside the river...

Nothing outside the river....