A Reflection...
Every sunday,a fight is certain between them.And,then arrows come to me and i twist them back to my father.I show my annoying,easy-to-get irritated nature.I am glad,i am glad that if i can be so sensitive for people.If i can be so sincere for them and if i can take all of their headache on me,then,i can easily forget you,if you'll.I can let you go,if you're already going.I can wave my hands to you,if you're exiting.
Like that of poem,you see!
I've lost those people with whom i walked once.People who once hold my hands and traveled with me.If i'll look back,i'll find their blur foot-steps,fading marks on my brain.But it pains me when,sometimes,i recall all those memories.Moments,when i had them.So,when it is taught by them that all are meant to go then why to worry?why to frustrate when you don't hear voices,everyday?When you don't hear some promises for a day.I've confined my life to a room.A little,dark,scary room.I am trying to get out of it.I am trying to live my life fully.And,i know,i'll.After all,i am a daughter of a man who is so determined in his sayings.
I had a notion that i'll adjust myself in people.But,somehow,it didnt work.After that wedding,i pray,i won't ever go to any wedding.People,their thoughts,girls,boys crazy for each others.Yuck!...
I should confess,i caught an eye on me:p
Is this life?girl,study,age,wedding and that's all?!...Well,i've a dream to......
Let it be,i had so many dreams,too,before....
I am here to make myself realize that it's alright with me,if you're with me or not.I am trying not to take people so serious.It's all lame!!!
mein tang a gyi hu khud se,apny wajood se,apni soch se.shayad wo sb b a gye hain.mujhy nai deni kisi ko b importance.koi deserve nai krta.koi b nai..sb lame hain...sb chaly jaty hain...bkwas hai yeh sochna k koi reh jaye ga..mene thaika nai le rkha kisi ki tention khud pe lene ka...sb dhoka hai...have some guts,and throw all away from your heart.or meri mnao to is dill ko b aag lga do....sb isi ka to kasur hai...I am alright...yeah,i am alright...let all go to hell.i am contented with my lonesome...
So,it's me,zarnab,signing off.
Take care.
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| mein chali B) |
"mujhy nai deni kisi ko b importance.koi deserve nai krta.koi b nai..sb lame hain...sb chaly jaty hain...bkwas hai yeh sochna k koi reh jaye ga..mene thaika nai le rkha kisi ki tention khud pe lene ka...sb dhoka hai"
ReplyDeleteSab ki yahi soch hai, tumhaari bhi aur meri bhi. If you forget me, I'll forget you, too. If you're busy in your mood swings and don't care for anyone else, then I won't either. Ye sabki soch hai. Sab reh jaane waale dost chaahte hain, lekin khud consistency nahi aati. Wahi baat hai ke hum Khuda se dua karte hain, lekin Uski ek nahi maante.
Insaan to wo hai jo selfless ho. Mujhe nahi dete importance, lekin mere dil mein jaga rahe gi tumhaari. Tum nahi rukte, par main tumhaara peecha karun gi. Ye hai soch. Ek buzurg ek baar ek shehad ki makhi ko paani mein doobta dekh kar, usko nikaalne ki koshish kar rahe the. Jab bhi nikaalte, wo kaat daalti aur phir paani mein gir jaati. Aisa bohot baar hua. Ek aadmi ne kaha ye aap kya kar rahe hain, wo aap ko nuqsaan hi diye jaa rahi hai. To unhone kaha ke wo apni fitrat nahi badal rahi, to main bhi kyun badlun?
If you want tit for tat then be ready first to give. Agar dene ke baad bhi nahi milta, phir kaho ke sab bakwaas hain. Sab dhoka hain. Sab fake hain. Sab jhoote lure karne waale matlabi hain.
The fact is that we don't care but we want to be cared for. Yaad hai wo ek larki jo tumhe summer vacations mein tang karti thi. Tumne usse ek baar daant diya ke kya hai. Wo phir chali gayi aur baad mein badal bhi zara si gayi. Aur tumhe ajeeb laga ke log badal jaate hain. We never care, when somebody cares about us, hum akk jaate hain, lekin when they go away tired, hum complain karke sab ko jhoota aur bakwaas kehte hain.
Be ready to just give, give and give. Don't bother ke koi deserve karta hai ke nahi. Sach sirf ye hai ke jitni muhabbat duniya mein phailao ge utni hi waapas aaye gi. Haath baandh ke ek kone mein baith kar ye sochna ke sab khud paas aa jaaye ga, ya log 'bear' karein ge with you, is asking too much.
Come out of yourself, and half your troubles will go away. Depression is a sickness of the person, not of the world. Yaani ye internal hai. Ye ek distorted mindset hai, ek bura attitude hai, ek pessimistic nazariya hai. Koi baazu waazu kat nahi gaya, ya taang toot gayi ho. It's only in the mind. And we can always change our way of thinking. Sab bakwaas nahi hain. Sab dhoka nahi hai. Hum "Sab" ko nahi jaante. "Kuch" se "Sab" pe jaana is not wise. Generalization is always a bad kind of logic.
Khair, if you want solitude, it's great. It keeps you away from sins. It's a blessing. "It's a condition out of which saints are born." But don't blame the world for it. Love honestly and patiently, and untiringly. Apne saare roopon mein se ek choose karo aur uspe qaayim raho. Ke this is me. This is the real me. This is who I want to be, and this is who I'll remain, or at least try to remain.
"mene thaika nai le rkha kisi ki tention khud pe lene ka"
To logon ne bhi nahi le rakha to put up with you. Give and get. Love and be loved. Talk and be spoken to. Respect and be respected. Be a friend to someone and have friends. Yahi duniya hai. Take a step forward. This world isn't all that bad. And you're only 19 and have the rest of your life to with. Make bonds and keep them. If you keep them, they will, too. If someone breaks, then everyone isn't the same. That's just a pessimistic generalization, and an unwise one at that.
I hope you think on this and take care of your heart better.
Rasool pak(P.B.U.H) ne kuch cheeze btayi thi jo apko hr wqt tenz rkh skti hain or un mese ik thi'zada logo se mail jol'...to haan,mein kooi nai.
DeleteOr shayad hum mein lrai thi:p...
to bye:p
That's what I'm saying. Ke solitude for itself is great. Lekin I don't think Aap SAW ne kabhi ye kaha ke puri duniya bakwaas hai aur sab dhoke baaz hote hain. :P Have good reasons for everything you do. Aur tanhaayi buri company se better to hai, lekin tanhaayi se behtar ek accha dost hai. Ab tum kaho gi ke koi accha dost hota nahi. To phir wahi baat.
DeleteLaraayi? :P I have no idea what you're talking about. But then these days, I'm always clueless where you are concerned. -_-
Yaaar!!!agr tumhy meri thoughts se itni chir hai to kyun krti ho comment?na kiya kro!simple!no excuse and no debt!all the same!...At least,meri EVIL EYE se bch to jati ho na!!!or plz,yeh cynic baty hain.Baty krny pe ao to mein b bra kuch bol skti hu.Rasool pak agr yeh nai khty the to wo or b bohat kuch khty thy.Kheir,mujhy nai pta k tum wapis kyun cmnt krny a gyi.Nahi kro gi to it won't make any difference here.Or bar bar a kr apni presence ka ehsas dila k mujhy or mt ghumao.Jitna pagal hona tha mene ho gyi!no more!
DeleteTake care.
Allah e hafiz...