If You Consider me....
I never got those guts that might force me to ask you openly 'am i needed?'...The fear of no always threw me in hell.It always did no good to me.I feel myself like that child to whom you may find in the corner,sitting alone.Well,not sad i must add.Because,now i am contended whether i am in a company or in solitude.Doesn't matter.It all does the same to me.Atleast,now it does.Yeah,i know i am not needed anywhere.Well,you shouldn't comment on this point of mine because it has been put here after going through so many stages.So,silence is better.Or maybe,i am wrong,well,in any case,let time show me.This blog did so so good to me.It helped me to exhale all my tiredness,lonesome.I remember when i met to my friend's mother,i felt so hesitation.I really don't know how to meet with people.How not to shy.What i said to her was really a stupid thing:
Apne ainak nai pehni aj?!
lol
And i think she was my future who said:
mein abhi lga k ayi.
rofl!
Well,everyone is not that same.So,problem arouses here.And,you know it hurts when they say you don't care.Well,to me all those people who makes noise that i did it for you and you did nothing in return and i did charity for you and i prayed for you,blah!blah!.Hell!Really,it seems fake to me.It really is!i won't tell anyone that how i prayed for him or how i was in agony or what the hell you may call.Why people by themselves not realize how much affection is hidden in the wrapper of sincerity?Why they always run for those who makes noise,who takes the support of advertisement of their love?Yeah,sometimes,its better to make other realize about your feelings but repeating a thing again and again,well!sorry!it seems fake to me!
I never felt myself that strong who may exchange numbers with boys.Well,excuse me for opening secrets.*he he he*i am that kind of girl who will die with blushing if someone will look at her with a nasty-affection.lol.Again excuse me,you,*he he he*...I've always seen the breaking of relations.Whether of friends or in family.Always breaking.Maybe,this has made me somewhat infidel to love.Or,i loved once and got tipping in reward.lol.I really can't forget.What i can do,then?just making my words more gracious?
No,when i see the happenings and realize i am not needed i go away in the corner and sit silently gazing at wall for nothing.
Well,everyone is not that same.So,problem arouses here.And,you know it hurts when they say you don't care.Well,to me all those people who makes noise that i did it for you and you did nothing in return and i did charity for you and i prayed for you,blah!blah!.Hell!Really,it seems fake to me.It really is!i won't tell anyone that how i prayed for him or how i was in agony or what the hell you may call.Why people by themselves not realize how much affection is hidden in the wrapper of sincerity?Why they always run for those who makes noise,who takes the support of advertisement of their love?Yeah,sometimes,its better to make other realize about your feelings but repeating a thing again and again,well!sorry!it seems fake to me!
I never felt myself that strong who may exchange numbers with boys.Well,excuse me for opening secrets.*he he he*i am that kind of girl who will die with blushing if someone will look at her with a nasty-affection.lol.Again excuse me,you,*he he he*...I've always seen the breaking of relations.Whether of friends or in family.Always breaking.Maybe,this has made me somewhat infidel to love.Or,i loved once and got tipping in reward.lol.I really can't forget.What i can do,then?just making my words more gracious?
No,when i see the happenings and realize i am not needed i go away in the corner and sit silently gazing at wall for nothing.
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