If I am Worth It...

Am I naive or the world acts like this? 

No.I don't want to explain my emotions when you give me a shut-up call and make fun of my emotions.I cannot defend myself as words start failing me.I rely on giving replies in chunks.I feel sad.

I cannot find another one.It took me years to love someone and nourish these feelings within me.I cannot do it again.You don't know how it is.You cannot imagine how frail these feelings can be.You shatter these tender emotions with your scathing words.

Why you are like this?

Sometimes, I wish to ask you this.Do you want to end it? Tell me. Do you need a space? Ask for it. Don't you feel for me? Say it right on my face but don't take offense at my feelings.You know that you have the right over me.You can do anything but no...do not make me feel disgusted for the affection I bear for you.It's not cheap.It is something beautiful for me.Just...don't...

You have scared me.How can you even talk to me like that? I am hurt or maybe I have deliberately made myself vulnerable to be hurt.One thing is sure and that is my love for you.My lips have been made sealed for the time being but I'll rise again.

I will show up myself again with a new zeal.

Why?

Because when I say that I love you, I mean it.