Tender Is The Night...

I know it's irrelevant but I am feeling romantic and this is my blog so I can do it! yeah B)

Fairy tales shouldn't tell you that they lived happily ever after.They should rather tell you how they lived happily after.There must be some secret.I am nervous and anxious.I miss him and at the same time, I do not want us to talk.How girls manage it? Is it normal or it is me who is making it "something"

I don't want to eat.I cannot focus on things properly.I just want to think about us.

My prayers have been answered.It has changed his heart towards me.So, this is not depression.I feel uncomfortable but it is something pleasant at the same time.

What if he says yes?

How will I manage this change? How my family would react to this? They are sensible people.I know. God has brought us here and there would be some way for us that will lead to happily ever after.But....How I will manage to talk to him? I already feel dumb in front of him.I feel damn nervous and shy.Is it normal? The sense of his very presence makes me feel shy.Damn!

I try being open.I want to know what he is thinking.It is hard to talk to him without blushing but I do it because I want to be there.I want to answer all his doubts that might resist him thinking of us.I don't want him to say no.

What if he says no?

I don't want to think about it.

One thing of which I am damn sure is that I am strong.I will manage.I want to take a nap till my mother wakes me up by calling me the bride-to-be.