On Being Fair...

Few years back,I used to be so much possessive about my marks in assignments,presentations,quizzes etc.That was the worst time period and I used to start crying over one or two marks. 9.5 was like a slap from the teacher and 4 in quiz was considered obnoxious. Such was the sensitivity of my study’s passion.Let me share another very “sensitive” event of that time.

Once,I obtained 6.5 marks in an assignment.Everybody got less than expected marks.So,all rely on blaming teacher.Now,you can well imagine what could be my situation.Yes.You are right in your guesses.I started crying in front of whole class.Regardless of the fact that It can give all of them a chance to bully me,I kept on crying and shed tears.Ofcourse,I felt a deep pain.A “good” student could not bear the irony of “6.5” However,my teacher called me separately ,treated gently and asked me to make another assignment for the compensation of marks.I felt peace which I couldn’t describe anyone in words.This favor proved as an “anti-depressant” and I was all happy once again.Now,there is another picture of the coin.In the whole situation,(when I was crying and felt anxiety over “loss”)a friend was sitting behind me.She tried to console me and nobody but to her I revealed this secret that I was being favored and were asked to make another assignment.She then inquired that what did I learn from all this? I had no answer.What could be learnt from such incidents? Teachers are sweet?Students can gain sympathies from crying? I was blank and had no answer for this.But I was curious to know that what exactly was her question.I kept on insisting her that she must make me to understand that what should be the moral lesson of all this.After taking too much time,she said a thing.I don’t remember exact wording but the gist was as following:

“When you got 6.5 you were blaming her along with the whole class and now,when she is favoring you, didn’t you think of the whole class? You should have told her to do this favor to whole of the class than showing kindness solely on you.”

I thought her to be right but what else could have been done? If I had tried to do the exactly what she said,I would have been deprived of this “Golden Opportunity” as well.Everybody becomes a little selfish when things come to this situation.Either you can stand for others, or you can make your way clear for yourself from all obstacles.

Now,when I have completed graduation and stepped into “practical” life.You encounter corruption and “sifarish” on every spot.The alarming moment for me is not the sifarish scenerio but something else.What is the standard for calling a safarshi a corrupt human? Wouldn’t you do the same thing If you get the chance?Wouldn’t you ignore all ethics and morality on a single “gentle treatment” ? Wouldn’t you crush the “merit” on the basis of your resources? You would.Dear human’s heart,you will do it for sure.Stop cursing others for manipulation and exploitation when you would have chosen the same for yourself.

Apart from all this,I am disappointed.Yes.Perhaps,because I couldn’t arrange the “resources” on time? I don’t know.Besides all these logic and rationalization,I am disappointed.I must take shelter into the arms of fate ,give rest to my brain and continue struggling until I reach on the verge of success.I should,perhaps,wait for my time.