My Dear Valentine...(A letter to Future Husband)

Now-a-days,I get distracted easily by papers,studies and other random works.So,I find it difficult to write those things which bang my mind for a minute and then get ruined by these distraction.Writing a post,collecting words,then,is a difficult task.But I have to write because its the only way to interact with myself.

I had a nightmare last night and its worrying me now.Really.I have been reflecting on things since morning and how incredible that dream was! I mean,I felt the pleasure and pain at the same time.I wish I could draw the pictures of those scenes which I witnessed in my dream.Somebody was narrating my thoughts and I was crying.That was tragic.

I know these dreams are the consequence of my conflicts.I face the battle of thoughts within my brain and when I push them back they enter in my dreams.

I felt you all around myself.I feel your presence all the days and nights and when I deny it, you make your presence known in my dreams.Strangely,I am left with these things only.I can remember you.I can pray for you.I can fight for you with my thoughts.But the irony is that the person for whom I invest my all mental and emotional energy is nowhere.Yes.You're no where.You're,perhaps,gone.But you will never be forgotten.

I see you everywhere.I inhale your presence.I breathe in you.At every night,I feel your touch around my body.I feel your arms around my waist and your lips caressing me from cheeks to neck.Yes.I imagine you in every possible way.

Last winters,I miss them so much.Those were most enchanting days when I found myself so close to you.I will never be able to recollect those days and shape them into a perfect memory box.You'll reside in chunks in my mind.Always scattered and never unified.Always ambiguous and never clear.But always and always you'll find yourself near to my heart.