I am alive...

  sun rha hai na tu,
  ro rha hu mein....

(I'm crying,listening?)

.......all people who frustrates my brain’s hollow shell.I am depressed and lying in a corner,thinking how to make myself happy and special.I know,I would stay away from crowd for some days and then again I shall be the part of it…

I am like that kid who knows his toy is going to break but still he tries to mend it.His endeavors are in vain.He knows all his struggles are going to prove fruitless,still,he tries…At last his heart breaks with that of toy. With shocked eyes and dismal,he loses all.Patience is required but I find it no where.I want to make it clear that I am tired of being entangled in my own blur and little clear thoughts.I should be strong as ever before I tried to be,no matter if I couldn’t succeed.Life is a stubborn child who teases you and make you bound to play with it.If you didn’t,it will cry and cries are going to be a tough time for you…(Both are extracted from my memoir'I live a life') 

So,here i am...alive and living a pathetic life.A life in which i feel guilty every day..I feel myself a sin and then turn towards to correct all and i lose...Time defeats me.My thoughts tease me and i cry in agony.I am living such awkward days that i am inclined towards an escape.I am yearning to feel happiness and seeking it makes me more miserable.I feel pain by seeing happy faces around me and then it kills me at night when i play with my pillow and remind those events and then i cry out like a baby...

Basement....I am residing there again...I am like a witch who possesses this place.I want to run away from this road and i want to rest.I need it.

I am not in my senses.I don't know on what,i should stuck..For what i should long...

Just like this post,there's no sense in my life....