Adieu...

If this is my life has become where i am left with only reflections,mourning,sighs and then sleep at nights,then i want a break.I want to spend my time near to real life.A time that is spent in my little garden is more worthy than that of in bed room.

Such helpless i feel,when i want to embrace life.When i want to hug all laughter but then something stops me and hits my brain not to follow those lively things.I think there's a ghost resides in my home who tangles me when i enter home from college.I find myself more comfortable in college,talking to different girls,entering in different kind of worlds but when, i am put in front of my own world,it stabs me with silence.It stops my brain working and slows down my heart beats.I always found my self little more warm than other,there is something wrong with my temperature.I remember those days,when my family was worried about my health.They were thinking as if i have had a fatal disease.Then all tests were normal.Even,i never had any typhoid,it was all a wrong diagnosis.Well,i had taken several tablets of 500mgs*haye*But,even then,i was normal.A doctor stared at me and said just this that i should eat more and more and that's all.lol.My father blessed me with the title,after reading an essay,a man who was  a hospital.The man was never in any kind of illness but a doubt of  being badly diseased with all kind of physical ailment.All problems are lie in your brain.It directs your heart to think on things and then you feel anxiety,depression and at last,it seems as if you're having a cancer.

When physically,you're fine but mentally,you're dead for a long time.

It's more fatal than anything else,isn't it?

I am thinking that if i stay here for a long time then you might fed up with my depressed thoughts,so,i am not going to re-establish my net connection this month or may be not for other months as well,who knows..It would be good for me.I have solid reason to prove my father that it's all lame.Well,no need of it,he already thinks so.So,i am going to miss all my blogger friends.I hope i would enjoy this break.And,if i got fun in it,then i might change somethings.Well,i shouldn't do pre-planning:p...

With the hope of being a normal girl for the first time,as i think i never was,i am biding adieu to you all.Wish me best of luck,that next time you won't find me a depressed girl:D..

I want to live life fully.So here i go......

Take alot of care you all.

bye...