Leaping towards 2026...

April,2025

The sense that I am dead in someone's memory always saddens me. Oblivion is a kind of death. I want to stay in mind because hearts can afford hard realizations. I dont want to be realized as someone's old and forgotten memories.

May,2025

People who used to be the essence of my childhood are heading towards their old age. It entails that the raw I had in me is growing stale.

September,2025

I really wish to be in the depths of literary world where the emotional rifts that humans bear with each others get ceased. Emotions float. Telepathies. Predictions. Hopes shattering and its rebuilding. Characters pair up in the end. Love nourishes. Tragedies are noble. I could be so versatile to settle in every page of my favorite novel. But I live in this world where realities are so different and people can dare to treat love as a trivial matter and turn insolent towards such sacred passions.

October,2025

I bear an unprecedent melancholy. I am more in my past than living the present. It is in my head that all the memories are being relived. The echoes that wail memories. We are burried in the tik tok of time and the needles are swaying ahead. We are not into those arms again. We are alone. We are same. But we are in a different place. I welcome this winter with the same depths of regret as it was in summer. 

November,2025

What this passing of time has given me other than the contant sense of loss and regret. I live perpetually in the melancholy which cannot be surpassed neither suppressed. At 19, I used to believe that a divine light resides somewhere in me. At32, I have wronged myself to depth that only profound darkness prevail within me. I find myself in the middle of nowhere. Into the trenches of this universe I still rely on the shallow flacks and shells of self where everyone else is creating the bubble of their self and intimating me to be with them. So many years of writing and still I cannot eradicate the  splendid whimsicity of my melancholy. 

December,2025

Stay indifferent. Callous. Relentless.