I am 31...

This year I would not think of any man to cherish my own identity. I would not peep into romcom to imagine myself into the same place. I would look forward to be myself. I abhor myself for ending up watching into mirror and reflecting about life. I would ease myself and will no longer chase vague footsteps. Its a very heavy duty to hold one and thousand countenance at the same time. Life at 31st will become critical but it wont stop me from writing. I will write in chunks, in disruption and realities will come out in distorted forms. 

Life at this stage is literally absurd. Things that were once henious in nature are now no more thrilling. Time is a maestro. It can make you forget about all things. Painful, happy, mysterious, tumultous and every other emotion that make life worth living sometimes seem absurd. I am still feeling a little agitated that someone should wish me and the otherone should not. 

I am already having middle age syndrom. I want keratine, shopping, a visit to salon and that compulsory photoshoot. Ha ha. Its my birthday anyways. 

Happy birthday to me. 

In my childhood, I used to long for cake and candles. Sometimes we did celebrate in that way and the other times we didn't. In high school, my friends,once,surprised me and it really made my day. Now, I don't expect that anyone would welcome me in morning as abviously it will be my workplace and such places are cursed to be cold. 

Age is the strange factor and yet so genuine. We decay by time. Our bones brittle, brain weakens but memories remain young. Life at 30th has been so critical and calm. It is critical because I have learnt many things and recognized loved ones. Calm it is, because I have made peace with their worst scenarios.

Its been a year that world is at war. October is always bittersweet. It reminds me that once I'd stepped into this world and became a part of this universe. It holds the opinion that even when I die, I will remain the part of it in the form of dust and particles. Nature had decided to choose me and this idea is so fascinating. 

I wish everyone peace of mind and soul. 

Bye.