On Beauty...

Beauty in every relation lasts for a very short moment and when it fades it never comes back.Something causes somethings to happen and everything gets changed within a moment.Then how and where to get that beauty which was,once,there and now nowhere.People change.No matter  how much they worship their consistency.They change and never going to be the same. But this all got me to learn some things. Things that i must nourish within me and nourish till the final breath.

I always believe that it takes just a moment to realize things and i realized it,last night.I thought of you in the stillness of night.Some words made me to remember you.I remembered your this and that.Sorry,i couldn't find out those posts that would've made this and that more powerful.But you can sense my words if only you feel me.What i was looking for when i text you'there?'...Some words of curse?attitude of hatred?.....I meant nothing,i just hoped for words...those words which i could've left uninterpreted.Only words.But then there meant to be nothing.Nothing because our relation has lost that appeal which once bound us together.It has become incapable of regaining that same position.Decaying with every moment.Breathing its last.

It's done with that beauty.Beauty which has gone forever and ever.

But i am left with those memories.Yes.I've realized this.I hold your memories in which you're the same beautiful and most pretty among all.In which you're the most rich in beauty.Neither hate nor avoidance can stop me to thinking of you because you delight my senses.Though,you're not the same one now.Changed like everything.But i've your memories in which you're not changed.In which you're all the same.In which you tell me about consistency and in which we're friends forever...I hold that memories of beauty and i'll hold it forever.

Call It my selfishness that I longed for you when I was at my worst. I tried to look for you when I was feeling sickness around me. And thank you for not replying because I was going to ask you something really absurd. Something that would've made you think that I'm loosing my senses but thank you for being silent and.... nothing.

Those were the moments when i find you most near to me.When i thought of you in profound darkness around me and when i thought of you in the emptiness and chaos.Then i realized that i'm going to hold those moments with me forever and ever..Let the things change and let yourself change,only i carry everything with me.Everything as ripe and fresh as it used to be.Let not become the same,if we can't.But let those moments shine in my memories.

I'm leaving this world again and taking break.I waited for this since the long time and at last,it is going to happen.I am going from here.Yayyy!.And let me think and assume if i am beautiful or not.Perhaps,i've too lost that beauty within me.

Good-Bye people.